Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in JAMES BLAKE's LiveJournal:

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Tuesday, July 13th, 2004
2:34 pm	u think u have me :-D well u got me ur winning u got me on the ropes im down BUT not out i dont lose ill comeback i always do :-)
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Wednesday, June 23rd, 2004
12:50 am	what a shock ok so yea i went to the docs a couple days ago and i found out that i have a tumor(sis) by my tailbone and i have to have surgery on it in like 2weeks but thats not the worst part it might be cancerous ,so yea things are not looking that good but whos knows ... wish me luck :-/ sorry for posting it just felt like it sorry ... Current Mood: drained Current Music: "end of forever" jacks broken heart
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Sunday, June 20th, 2004
7:48 pm	hmmm why why one last thing before you go one last piece, of my soul would it matter if i held you and told you that it was alright, one last time i wanted to be your first love i would have settled for your last romance. but as you walk into his arms will we ever have our last dance? forever ends within this minute why did you choose to end it like this? when there was so much left to say you were soft-spoken in the hardest way endless waiting for those things, you could never say you always knew, how to break my day forever ends from this minute i don't want this to end tonight it's not alright infinitely was written trying not to fold for you this one last time before you go to him whoever said to have loved and lost is better than never loving never felt like this! the times of our lives were not spent well and so i fell, harder than ever! and i'll keep reminding myself to regret. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: a good song i guess
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Wednesday, May 26th, 2004
5:42 pm	I feel to strongly to throw it away Ok Im sorry you guys(friends and fam) are mad at me for the decision I made ,  I wish you would support me but I cant make you and I understand why you don’t .I felt like I had to do this , I followed my heart on this and I hope it doesn’t lead me the wrong way .I know you guys are just trying to look out for me and I thank you honestly I do but I cant help what I feel and I feel strongly for this .THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME , ALL OF YOU <3 Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: "hey angel" away from here
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Friday, May 21st, 2004
8:50 pm	Would have given up my life for you Guess it's true what they say about love It's blind Girl, you lied straight to my face Looking in my eyes And I believed you 'cause I loved you more than life And all you had to do Was apologize You didn't say you're sorry I don't understand You don't care that you hurt me And now I'm half the man That I used to be when it was you and me You didn't love me enough My heart may never mend And you'll never get to love me, again No, no, no, no, no, no Sadness has me at the end of the line Helpless watched you break this heart of mine And loneliness only wants you back here with me Common sense knows that you're not good enough for me And all you had to do Was apologize, and mean it But you didn't say you're sorry I don't understand You don't care that you hurt me And now I'm half the man That I used to be when it was you and me You didn't love me enough My heart may never mend And you'll never get to love me I wish like hell I could go back in time Maybe then I could see how Forgiveness says that I should give you one more try But it's too late, it's over now You didn't say you're sorry I don't understand You don't care that you hurt me And now I'm half the man That I used to be when it was you and me You didn't love me enough My heart may never mend And you'll never get to love me Again
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Wednesday, May 12th, 2004
8:49 pm	OMG OMG I DOWNLOADED THAT VIDEO OF THAT AMERICAN GETTING IS HEAD CUT OFF(SORRY THAT SOUNDS BAD) ITS WOW I CANT BELIEVE WHAT I SAW THEY DIDT EVEN CARE FUCKEN ASS HOLES
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Saturday, May 8th, 2004
5:16 pm	MY PARENTS R THE WORST JUST BECUZ I CAME HOME LATE LAST NITE THERE NOT LETTING ME PRACTICE OR GET MY RACQUETS FOR LEAGUE TOURNMENT (THATS ON TUESDAY) SO RIGHT NOW I GOT NOTHIN AT ALL FOR TUESDAY I WORKED SO HARD FOR 4 YEARS , THIS YEAR , THIS SUMMER FOR THIS, SO THEY CAN JUST DO THIS TO ME THIS IS NOT RIGHT AND THEY DONT EVEN CARE ABOUT IT THEY CAN CARE LESS SO MUCH FOR ALMONT TENNIS LEAUGE CHAMP 2004 THATS NO MORE IM NOT EVEN GOIN TO GET TO PLAY :-( Current Mood: crushed
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Monday, May 3rd, 2004
10:05 pm	hahahaha ok so like todays practice was awesome it started off by running through the sprinklers on field that was cool , haha we played all wet than we practice for like a hour than we had to hit a chair 15 times to go swimming and across i did it for the team so we went swimming that was the best . BEST PRACTICE BY FAR ALL YEAR o yea how can i forget my friend told me today that some scout from a college or college's are looking at me(me)WOW thats jsut so freakin cool i didt think i was that good !!WOW Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: "hey angel" away from here
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Thursday, April 29th, 2004
8:25 pm	why?? well i have been noticing something about u i dunno maybe its jsut to me but you've changed ,its not the same with any more and hate that we use to be so close now its like u try to avoid me or something i miss the way we use to be i want it to go back to the way it use to be but i guess thats not up to me .... to.... )( this person will know if they read it Current Mood: drained Current Music: "nothing better" the postal service
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Tuesday, April 20th, 2004
10:00 pm	Why do you build me up and then break me down? Why don't you just come through? You know that I can't get by on promises you never should have made I'm holding on, but not for long if you don't make a change. Why do you build me up and then break me down? Why don't you just come through? I'm not sure how much longer I can take this. If you can't do what you say, I'm leaving you Sometimes love is not enough. Your good intentions are losing their intent I'm waiting for something more that might not ever come You're losing me...
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Monday, April 5th, 2004
8:16 pm	i got it i got my lic wahoooo :-D Current Mood: cheerful
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Thursday, April 1st, 2004
9:11 pm	sooo scared !!!!!!
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Thursday, March 11th, 2004
7:59 pm	cheatersss all i got to say is LA SERNA CHEATS BIG TIME Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: who knows
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Wednesday, March 3rd, 2004
7:52 pm	eeeaaaasssssyyyy yup yup today was a good day at school than i had my game at el rancho ... i played the "the wall" plzzz i owned him 6-2 and he had me 2-0 cuz i was nervous , its all good.. i felt so bad is mom was watching and she was happy until i beat her sons ass hahaha and the rest of my scores were 6-0 , 6-1 yea easy yea 2morrow we play bosco tech , there goin to be hard but will see what i can do yup yup Current Mood: crazy Current Music: oreo u can choose for me haha
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Sunday, February 29th, 2004
12:08 am	hey hey ..well this will be r uniform for tennis ....( Read more... ) Current Mood: creative Current Music: jacks broken heart " dress the part "
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Friday, February 20th, 2004
11:36 pm	sssstttttoooooooooppppppppppp when i scream out loud u cant hear me i wish i could tell u what i feel but i jsut cant its so hard to say Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: "loved and lost everything" jacks broken heart
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Tuesday, February 3rd, 2004
10:42 pm	TEEENNNNNNNIIIIISSSSSS well i been thinking about quiting tennis for the school. its not fun anymore i use to look foward to it now i try to find a reason not to go and its boring no one to play with , (TRYING TO PUT THIS IN A NICE WAY) everyone sucks on the team and they mess around to much .. my friend told me i should go to whittier and play 4 there team but i dunno yet i would be leaving a lot if i do WHAT TO DO????WHAT TO DO????
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Tuesday, January 13th, 2004
9:43 pm	A GREAT DAY :-) Today was a great day overall It started off by me giving liz a rose for r 1 month anniversary than walked her to class. Man things r goin great with her its jsut weird ,im feeling werid , i dunno .   Than i played tennis for the first time in like 3 weeks . I played alright at school but when i got home i went to play at t he park with lil "gg" and i played with this guy Gus (he's really good) i played pretty good i was shocked :-o   MANNN IM PRETTY DAMM HAPPY I HAVENT FELT LIKE THIS IN ALONG TIME MAN THIS FEELS SO GOOD I CANT EXPLAIN BUT IM HAPPY :-)               Current Mood: happy Current Music: T. I. 24's (THIS IS THE SONG AHHHH)
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Monday, January 12th, 2004
3:55 pm	weirrrrrdddddd.....   hmmmmmm :-( Spending precious moments never leaving your side has made me whole, introduced warmth into my life. Truthfully it?s been on my mind I can only see myself with you, for all of time. I promise you?re the first, and it seems that you will be the last. Just when it seems that it could last forever. Never stopping we?d go on falling, further, but slowly I can feel my heart dropping forever?s end is tearing us apart. Now that you?re departing, it?s all starting again remembering feeling all the loneliness again. But it?s ok it has to be this way. Go on without me I understand. Maybe someday we meet again but for now forever must end. It has to be this way! Please let go of me! I understand! Maybe someday we?ll meet again. Dont you wish it could go on forever!   Current Mood: worried Current Music: jacks broken heart " end of forever "
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Thursday, January 8th, 2004
8:31 pm	man it seems to me everything i do i have to work extra hard for, nothin ever comes easy for me , like i have to work 4 times as hard as the next person and i have to fail more times than the next . i guess thats the way god wanted it for me too learn like this well im cool with that cuz i guess in the long run this will help me out Current Mood: curious Current Music: the silence of the phone by my side
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